I think the first thing I'd like to cover is my mental state of being currently. I've been content and flowing with the current (current being life) lately, living my life, and wandering around, philosophizing. But I want to admit something, I'm lonely. Not in the sense that you may think! See, I'm NOT lonely, but I am. Let me phrase this different. I'm just not happy with the circumstances I've been dealt, how about that? I've thought lately, "Maybe I should get laid." But then I thought it would go against my beliefs right now (I've gained new ones, lol.) I like somebody, you see? And until I quit, if ever, liking them, I'm not gonna go against that. Maybe it would be cheating? No. It'd be nothing really. It'd be just a 'teenager' thing, but YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND MY BRAIN STFU..

Okay, what was I saying? Oh yeah, my mood or something. I've been kind of concerned about my happiness recently. There are the little things, you know? There's some big things, but no in betweens. As if I didn't have these things, small or big, I would simply just not be happy. Maybe I'm depressed. See, when I don't have these small or big things, I find that I don't have happiness. I'm just, how would you say, a blob? A walking blob, no emotions, no fears, no concerns. Is that how it is it with everybody? Probably not. I look at people who are happy and wonder, "How do they do it? And how did I manage it at one point in my life?"

What the fuck is up with the phrase "I love you," huh? JUST A FUCKING QUESTION, YO.

Mood: Angered.

I think maybe I might be.. GOING INSANE?