Dear Anna and Vally,

You're too young to understand much of what's going on right now, or what's going to come. Of course, in the coming years you'll finally realize. I can tell you two will be intelligent, will see life for what it truly is, and I pray to god my mother doesn't put you through the crap she put me through. You guys are precious little souls and deserve nothing but the best out of life. My little soldiers, so if and when times get tough, you have to be strong like your big sister, okay?

I'm going to be leaving soon, and I think if I had any regrets, leaving you guys would be the worst and biggest one. But you see, I have to leave. I can't take much more of Alabama. I need to get out of here. I'm pleading for your forgiveness in advance, I suppose.

Valentina, you've taught me so much and I sincerely think you've saved my life. Made me see things in a totally different perspective. I've done so much just to see that goofy little smile. And I'm sorry when mommy and I yell, we can't help it. We don't get along. And I'm sorry you have to suffer, I know you hate it when people yell. I used to hate that, too. Which is another reason I have to leave -- I can't take much more yelling. I know you love your big sister, and it brings a smile to my face just thinking about it. You and Anna are just that, my happiness. I can turn to you guys and just.. Be happy. I want you to take care of Anna. Make sure she doesn't get into too much trouble, if any. But mostly this goes to you, because I know you can mischievous. Behave.

Anna, the day you were born, it gave me so much more hope. A new beginning, new life. And it was beautiful (you, not the birthing process haha). You were beautiful. And you still are, chubby buddy. You realize that all of mommy's children helped her in some way, right? You helped her realize she needs to get her life into shape. She needs to stop being a child. She has responsibilities, and this is a big thank you, Anna. Thank you for being there for my mother, thank you for saving her life for the third time. The last time. You're starting to crawl now. You're good at it.. You're so young and you're crawling like a pro. Sure you may fall down sometimes, but you get back up. And good job. I love you, you know that? Always remember that.

Just know when Julia's on the road, you two are in my thoughts always. Everyday. And I will never, ever forget you guys. I'll visit, it may take a while, but I'll visit. To see how much you guys have grown.

Love you two.